I hate that feeling when you get blindsided! Good ol’ Webster defines blindsided as, to surprise or shock (someone) in a very unpleasant way. But what if the person(s) don’t intend for this to happen? What if you walk into this, “surprise or shock in a very unpleasant way?” I guess it’s still being blindsided…right??
Recently I’ve experience a few of these blindsides and it has been very undoing. I used to be someone who could handle these types of events. Now when they happen, not only is it happening to me, it’s happening to my inside community. I not only have to protect myself, but these precious parts as well. Because this it what if feels like…Sometimes the blindsides are on purpose, like the one in the gif above and other times, it just happens. In either case, you’re never really prepared. That is the piece that sucks! What do you do when you walk right into one, on accident. When tears fill your eyes and you feel this sickness in the pit of your stomach? You feel frozen, you can’t move, but you have to get away. Does that make you a coward? Is it your problem you can’t handle things? Is it okay to feel hurt by it? So many questions…all without an answer. And what if it is being done by someone you trust and care about? They are just doing life. But it just so happens that part of them doing life has had a negative affect on you!
I’m feeling knocked down today. Even after a pretty good therapy session. It’s weird how quickly things can change.