You know that feeling deep inside that you have misplaced or lost something? I have felt that this week, but couldn’t put my finger on what was happening. I had some major triggering events happen, unexpectedly during that time, which didn’t help. Then on Friday I learned that the most recent part we have been working with, left.
By left, I mean she wrote a note saying she needed to go away for awhile. What?? I know that parts don’t die or disappear forever, but going away. We were so close to getting through her things. It makes me sad, and confused, and wondering if I pushed her too hard. This has never happened before, and I hate it.
What do I do? I have been so triggered lately and then losing her at the same time has pushed me into isolation. I don’t want to leave the house, go to work, bible study or therapy. I actually have canceled all those things…but what if that was a mistake too.
I feel like those little ones and my other teenager, on the inside, need to go to talk, but I’m afraid. Not really even sure of what.