I have not been on to blog for a few days, not sure why, but maybe I simply get tired of the same cycle. Although there has been significant progress in many areas, I’m grateful for the answers to prayers, and the help I’m receiving, it is easy to find myself feeling alone and broken.
How can I fix this? I can’t share information until I fix it first. If I could only figure out why this is happening, or why I am feeling this way. What can I do to make it stop? I should be able to do something. I need to get it together, then I can move forward. What if I never feel right again?
All those statements/questions burn through my mind on a daily basis, and yet the answer will always remain the same. It’s NOT about me doing anything, because I can’t fix it. It’s about what God is doing IN and THROUGH me. Only He knows the answers to my questions, the truth behind the statements, and His answers will come in His time. They will be for my good, and His purpose.
But….I hate the pain and suffering! God doesn’t promise we won’t feel pain and suffering, ugh! We live in a world full of sin, and sinful people, driven by sinful nature. We hurt each other. We need God! We need His promises, truths, strength, and Jesus. We are guaranteed eternal life with Him someday, if we believe in Him, ask for forgiveness and live for Him. God loved us so much He gave His son, who endured horrible physical, emotional and unthinkable abuse. Guess what? He didn’t do anything to deserve it! Like those of us who have suffered similar abuse; we didn’t do anything to deserve it either. Yet we all need someone to save us…and that someone is Jesus.
He knows exactly how we feel, what we went through, endured, suffered, cried out for, and He wept for us. He didn’t give us more than we could handle, without His grace and mercy. So today, if you are struggling, hurting, crying…whatever it is, call out His name and ask Him to save you! Believe Him, Trust Him, Have Faith in Him, Tell Him what happened, Confess and be Washed White as Snow, and live your life with Him.
You won’t wake up feeling “all better”, “normal” or “someone else”. You will wake up a new person, the old has gone the new has come. A fresh start, new beginning, someone to always be there in the difficult times when we have: “to tell our stories”, sleepless nights”, “flashbacks/memories”, “body pains”, “to seek therapy”, “to break addictions”, “loneliness”, “unhealthy attachments”, etc. Jesus will never leave you or abandon you, EVER! It’s a promise!
I fall down, fail, scream at Him, stop trusting, question Him. I forget He is my rock, my shield, my comforter, my savior, but He knows it before I ever do any of that, that is what is so great about God’s love, even when we (whatever)…..He loves us!
God uses all the good, bad and ugly in our lives to make us beautiful, if we believe in Him. He makes beauty out of our ashes. Let Him make you beautiful today!
Isaiah 61:1-3~The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the suffering and afflicted. He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted, to announce liberty to captives, and to open the eyes of the blind. He has sent me to tell those who mourn that the time of God’s favor to them has come, and the day of his wrath to their enemies. To all who mourn in Israel he will give: beauty for ashes; joy instead of mourning; praise instead of heaviness. For God has planted them like strong and graceful oaks for his own glory.