Today was therapy Tuesday. Woke up at 5am, ran 6 miles, head off to bible study, learn of God’s love, care and protection for me, then head to therapy and walk out feeling so ashamed. I feel so f-ing crazy! It feels so needy, so lonely, so messed up inside, so disgusting, so dirty, so, so, BAD! Why can’t I walk out of there, and just be normal? Abuse sucks, it totally, f-ing sucks!! Who does this kind of shit to people?? Oh ya, your own damn parents, that’s who!!