These are the “Parts of Me” depicted by the letters of their first names. This was drawn by a part of me, named, Cindy. Her role has been to hold all emotions, and she has beautifully created and interpreted a drawing for each part in my internal community. More to come later…
I had recently started a daily devotional, and day two was titled “Name that Hurricane”. So, I was supposed to write out what current “storm” I was facing in my life. On an index card I titled it, “DID: The Parts of Me” and wrote out a short description of what my storm was like, how I trusted God to walk with me in the journey, and that healing would come from Him alone. Now all that sounds like I really embraced this process…and I wish that were true! I struggled in the beginning to wrap my mind around what all this actually meant.
Many times I would think, and at times still do, that I was crazy. Then I would be grateful for finally understanding why I have felt this way for so long. It was a roller coaster of emotions, to which I was not accustomed to feeling. It was a constant battle of questioning, What is going to happen to me? What will my husband and sons think? What will others feel about me? How will I get through this? How long will it take? Oh, the questions just kept coming, without immediate answers of course.
Years ago I did a bible study, but can’t remember the title. However, one particular quote stuck out that I have embraced during the early days of questioning. It says something like this…The truth about me is what God says. Not what I feel or think and not what anyone else may say, think or do. The truth about me is what God says!
The verses in Philippians 4:6-7 said it best, “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus”.
The “parts of me” will always be here, and I am learning to embrace, love, accept, and grow together with them. Is it going to be simple, painless, or straightforward? Not everyday, and maybe at first, not most days. But I am learning, fighting, and trusting in One who says He will never leave me.